Being bored is good, you know.
Finally, some peace...
5 minutes later, back to scrolling random stuff on Instagram.
Believe it or not, this is what is happening: we (at least I) can't seem to not pick up our phones or devices for more than 30 minutes. It's like we need to be always searching, scrolling, looking for answers, listening to funny memes, reading, marking stories, linking pictures, and keeping our brains in working mode 24/7.
I always wanted to build something, create something, make something, and I can't seem to fixate on any ideas because I can't seem to wander around with a single thought for 10 minutes straight; there is always something in between.
What I wanted to do
Well, embrace boredom. I think that's the answer I have decided on. I have proof of this. This is not from a motivational reel or YouTube video. XD
Being bored is just letting our brains go play in the playground, kind of a view. Not spending hours consuming content and not being in control of things.
It's a more observability perspective; most of the things that we do are from the habits that we incorporated from our childhood, and these habits go on autopilot, and sometimes it's very difficult to distinguish between awareness and autopilot.
It's like this post: I'm writing, I'm trying to get my thoughts in control, but I can't. You wouldn't know this because you are reading this.
You don't know whether this is the first draft of thoughts being written or it's an iteration of multiple drafts. Maybe it took a couple of hours or minutes. Or this post is just lazy writing.
Yes, you are right. I'm constantly picking my brain, thinking while writing this about whether the grammar is right, they are right about context, or I am jumping between different ideas, spelling, and stuff. This makes me anxious about not completing my drafts of posts in time.
To solve this, what should one do?
Not give a fuck about random shit. And embrace boredom. Like just observe your actions, thoughts, where it's going, and what's happening around you. Do not worry about the next day or the next hour. Think about right now as you are reading this text, you realize just now that you are being aware, and you are getting the concept that I'm trying to convey.
Irony is that you lose this once you go back to autopilot when you open Instagram or watch a movie or listen to music, or any other kind of stuff.